A's story - A journey from pain to purpose
"My parents didn’t understand my struggles..."
When I was in the 4th grade, I experienced a pain that was difficult to comprehend at such a young age. Close friends began to distance themselves from me for reasons I couldn't understand. As life progressed, my agony and loneliness grew. I had no friends, and as an introvert, it took immense courage to speak up, but even then, no one seemed to need me. While other girls my age cried over love, I shed tears over my lack of friends. It was a pain that worsened over time; even the few friendships I managed to make never lasted long.
I often asked God why He had brought me into this world if I couldn’t even enjoy my childhood. My parents didn’t understand my struggles, and I felt an overwhelming sense of isolation. Even at a young age, I sometimes thought about ending my life, though deep down, I feared it because I still wanted to live.
As I grew older and completed my postgraduate studies, my character began to change. I started to like living alone and blamed myself for my loneliness, believing I was a bad person and that’s why no one wanted to be friends with me. However, my perspective shifted when I fell in love. For the first time, I felt joy in someone who liked me back. It taught me that I was capable of being loved. But that relationship turned toxic, and my wounds deepened as he blamed me for everything.
After finishing my education, at the age of 25, I returned home and began preparing for my competitive exam to achieve my dream job. During this period, something struck me profoundly, as if God had opened a door for me. I started to analyze my life and realized it wasn’t my fault that I had lost friends; they were toxic, and God had removed them from my life to protect me. For the first time, I felt gratitude. I was thankful that I had avoided negativity and toxicity.
This newfound understanding made me feel happy. I recognized my qualities and understood what a good person I am. I began to express gratitude for everything I had done and experienced. I started keeping a gratitude journal and using the Gratitude app daily. Completing tasks in the app brought me a sense of happiness and fulfillment. I engaged in affirmations, vision boards, and more.
Today, I have achieved my dream job and am living the life I always envisioned. Gratitude has transformed my life, allowing me to find joy and contentment in every moment.
Thank you.
