Tonya's Story - After My Dad Passed Away
"In the last 5 years, we lost four best friends."
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I have always used gratitude and gratefulness in my life to count my blessings. But when I heard the news that my father had passed away, it was just too hard for me to deal with.
I couldn't stop crying for a week, and I had a nervous breakdown when I heard that he had passed. Shortly after that, I kept thinking about my dad over and over, and started having uncontrollable racing thoughts. Then, this gratitude journal app helped me to cope.
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Just before my dad passed, my brother-in-law also passed away from a blood clot to the heart. In the last 5 years, my husband and I lost four best friends.
And in the 5 years before that, I lost both sets of grandparents, a cousin, and later my favorite aunt. Dealing with the loss of loved ones has been so very difficult for my husband and me. But I find strength in a gratitude journal and positive affirmations.
I want to be strong for myself, to push forward and be present. I want to be strong for myself and the ones I love. I also find strength in helping and being there for loved ones, but I also have to be there for myself.
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This gratitude journal is helping me so much to get through my father's death and his funeral. It helps me to think more positively, count the blessings that I do have, and cherish the good memories we all had together.
Instead of grieving in sorrow, I rejoice for my dad's eternal life in heaven with God, Jesus, and all the angels. He will always be with us in our minds and hearts forever, and I am grateful for all the memories we shared.
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