Pat's Story - Finding Myself
I am 62 years old and have been married to my lovely husband for 40 years. I have two wonderful children, two beautiful grandchildren, and a gorgeous dog Charlie. All my life I have worked hard and looked after my family.
I cared for my parents for eleven years, I have had good and bad times in my life but have always put other people first and never really cared about myself. I have been hurt many times in my life by family and friends which over the years has changed me as a person.
I went from being happy, fun, and bubbly to being sad, angry, and negative. I put a lot of barriers up to prevent getting hurt again. I knew that I had changed over the years, but I didn’t understand why and I didn’t know what to do about it.
In August 2019, I retired from work and found that I had plenty of spare time on my hands. In the first couple of months, I spent my time with my beautiful new granddaughter.
I started dancing, volunteered to walk rescued greyhounds, and joined a choir. I literally felt that I had to be doing something every minute of the day.
Then in January/February, the Coronavirus struck, as did lockdown in March, and like everyone else in the world I was stuck at home and keeping in touch with my family via Facetime and Zoom.
Little did I know that this turn of events would lead me to find myself.
My daughter, who has been on quite a journey herself, encouraged me to do a course about how the brain works, the course was called Rewired by Dr. Joe Dispenza.
It explores the mind-body connection and teaches you how to rewire your brain for self-healing and manifestation.
At 61 years old this was the start of my journey. This amazing course helped me to understand why I had changed so much over the years.
It taught me to let go of the past, to disconnect from negative people, forgive and move on and appreciate everything that I have in my life. I started to meditate daily, learned Reiki, lost 3 stone in weight, and found the wonderful Gratitude app.
On the 3rd of June 2020, I made my first journal entry, and I haven’t missed one since. It has become part of my daily routine, no matter how bad things are we can always find something to be grateful for every day.
At first, I used to write about family things and my dog most of the time and then I did the 7 Day Challenge and this made me think outside the box and have gratitude for the things in life we very often don’t feel grateful for.
I have since completed the 14 Day and 21 Day Challenges. I have written quite a few affirmations about myself which I now believe are true.
The vision board has helped me to focus on what I want in the future and I honestly believe that the things I want will happen when the time is right.
The Daily Zen is brilliant. The quotes make you think and more recently the Gratitude Stories have been added.
I love reading how people have turned their lives around and how much the Gratitude app has helped them to do it. It is reading these that inspired me to tell my story.
Today I feel like a totally different person. I am a nice person, I am kind, I am good, I am caring, I am blessed, I am thankful, I am strong, I am content, I am loved, I am healed, I am me.
I have been on quite a journey and this wonderful app was the final piece of the jigsaw.
My message to all of you lovely people reading this is to take time out for self-care, do whatever makes you feel good, be kind and look around, and have gratitude for all the little things in life and you like me will realize that it’s never too late to find yourself.
